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JustAnotherDownE
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Location: United States
Gender: Male
Interests: "...What is Love? Why do we want it so badly and searched so hard to find it? Why do we put so much emotions into it? Why does it affect us so much? Do we even know what it is? Where can we obtain it? *Heart of my sweetz, let me share my inner meaning of Love to you* You'll know when you found Love, when he is always on your mind, when you always want to hear his voice , when you always want to be in his presence, when only a thought of him will put a smile on your face,when you are willing to scarifice things to show him that you cared, when every moment you've spent wit him leaves a permanent mark on your soul, when you hurt so badly every time you say good-nite to him,when you fight and then cry on his shoulders, when you have something to look forward in life because of him, when you are willing to leave everybody and all your friends to be with him, when you closed yourself from the world for him, when you change for him, when you become blind and sees nothing but him,
Expertise: "...But I alone am drifting,not knowing where I am.Like a newborn babe before it learns to smile,
I am alone, without a place to go. Others have more than they need, but I alone have nothing. I am a fool. Oh, yes! I am confused. Other men are strong and bright, But I alone am dim and weak. Other men are sharp and clever, But I alone am dull and stupid. Oh, I drift like the waves of the sea, Without direction, like the restless wind. Everyone else is busy, But I alone am aimless and depressed. I am different, I am nourished by the great mother."
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message me
Member Since:
4/26/2003
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| Well can i say the person i thought i know im bearly getting to know, these last few days the things i have learned and are finding out im thinking and wondering to myself if i would have made the same path i am in now...
there are things i know and am waiting for this person to tell me, cant be in a relationship without trust, cant be trusted then no point being in a relationship...
Mae and i had our talk the other night on what i really should be doing, i know im the type of person who knows what i want knows how to get there, am i making an ezseption for this relationship??? or am i just simply waiting for this to all work out??? and for my worst fears am i just wasteing my time and hoping for nothing that is there...
i simply wait and see and hope for all for it to work out, then i have a friend who knows me best to talk it all out... could it be that i have all this thoughts in my head and im just blocking out what i dont want to hear and if it was true he would tell and let me know, or likei have said am i just waitng on the nothingness that has never been there before and the openness that will never come...
trust is the main thing i await for, but how long do i last to wait and see if it would ever build, can already tell that he has been heart broken before and yet my fear with that is he hasnt delt with it yet and how am i to help when he cant even open up...
with all this problem i already know the answer and yet i cant get myself to take that path and that road, hope im not waiting for nothing because i already know that feeling from this person before... | | |
| lately i notice everyone has a question and seem to have a hard time finding the answers, i say this becuase i catch myself in the same situation...
got to spend time away from work and FUCK DID IT FEEL GOOD!!! got the chance to just kick back and wake up in the morning just like that every now and then would be just... you know words cant ever say it, funny part is i dint have any questions in my head today not what so ever... does it mean that i finaly got the answer i was lo0king for?!?! and was it right there in frunt of me???
" lifes to short, live life with no regreat..."
man TOKYO DRIFT was TIGHT as FUCK !!!
makes me just want to bust out in a s2000 and run in circles...
and was just nice all in all...
so i sleep tonight with no question in mind, no need to ponder with answers... i sleep as well tonight as you do, cuase i guess at this point we are in the same page... .. .
wishing... hopeing... and just letting things be, you already gave me your answer... .. . all i do is sit and wait... .. . | | |
| lately i been just anything and everything but myself. i have let a part of me from my past take over, it comes to the point where i have to question what im doing and why im doing it. but then its been done and im back where i started...
why do i feel like this when im around you? why do i get all light headed and cant think straight? why cant i just be myself and act as if everthing was alright? why do i get all exited to see you? and why do i just have the feeling to never let go when i say go0d by???
maybe the same reason im not with you, why i cant call you my own... maybe because im not ready to start another one becuase im still stuck on my last one...
i mean these are all questions i cant even answer, and i hate that i cant even talk to yeah about it... .. .
i mean i could just be lo0king at this in a negative way and i have nothing to worry about, but then i remember the past... and i mean things have change but i wish you could just give me something to clear my mind so im not guess... but i guess thats a little to much to ask for at this point cuase i cant even talk to you about anything else now a days without it being weird... you know how i feel and i wish i was just a little more clear with yours...
Heather Headly Lyrics - I Wish I Wasn't Lyrics
I'm home alone - again
And you're out hangin' with your friends
So you say -
Somehow I know it's not quite that way
It's getting pretty late
And you haven't checked on me all day
When I called - you didn't answer
Now I'm feelin' like you're ignoring me
(VAMP)
(I wish) that you were home
(Holdin' me) tight in your arms
And (I wish) I could go back
To the day before we met
And skip my regrets
(CHORUS)
I wish I wasn't in love with you
So you couldn't hurt me
It just ain't fair - the way you treat me
No you don't deserve me
Wasted my time thinkin' 'bout you
And you ain't never gon' change
I wish I wasn't in love with you
So I wouldn't feel this way
When you touch me, my heart melts
(Anything you do wrong I forgive) - Yeah yeah
So you play me and take advantage
Of the love that I feel for you
Why you wanna hurt me so bad
I believed in you that's why I 'm so mad
Now I'm drownin' in disappointment
And it's hard for me to even look at you
(VAMP)
(CHORUS)
You said you care about me
But from what I see
I ain't feelin' that
So I disagree
Gave you all my love
And understanding
And you treated me
Like your enemy
So leave me alone
Don't wanna confront ya
Just go back where you came from
This house is no longer your home
You're not welcome no, no, no more
(KEY CHANGE - CHORUS x2)
I hear you knockin' at the door again
I'm wonderin' should I let you in
I open up the door and see
The flowers for me
So beautiful in your hand
You start beggin' me to take you back
I've always been a sucker for romance
And before you know it - I can see
You're all over me
Oh no here I go again
I wish I wasn't in love with you
So you couldn't hurt me
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okay its about 1 in the morning and i cant sleep i have work at 7:30 and i feel like this will just be another restless night... all i have in my head is:
i couldnt do it.... alll i had in my mind was you...
maybe i need to stop lieing to myself and just let it go... .. . | | |
| deep inside i know what i want, but then there is this part of me that wonders... do i want to take this big chance and have this big change, i know i should take it a day at a time but then this feeling inside just changes it all when im with this person...
was close enough to do something and close enough to say something but then i dint... does it mean something???
HAhaHA a go0d friend of mine said just let it be... and also for me to smack the other person over the head... HAhaHA
Well people come and people go but then the one you love will stay...
guess i take a step back and let it be... i complain so much but then at the same time i know deep inside im just scared to say something and do something about it... well guess the right time will come... if its not to late...
alright i havnt vented about that in a while lolz
that is all HAhaHA
Pz | | |
| well what can i say i have just been chill lately, i knwo i have changed no dout about it... but the question that comes into mind is that >> IS THIS CHANGE THAT I HAVE ONCE AGAIN GONE THROUGH FOR THE BEST??? << who knows, i have gotten a few responds and answers but then at the same time what can i do if this is now who i am???
~> well othere then that i have just been kick back and well today i saw the sadest thing... i was at cosco and jsut got my photos and well wanted to get a drink and well when i was in like there was this lil boi and his mom, i mean harmless right? Well the lil boi was saying that he was hungry and well his mom just said i know sweetie and just gave him a pat on the head... and well they got their fo0d and went off and well i got my drink, and well once i got to my car i was lo0king for my eyes cause i tend to forget where i put it... and well when i lo0ked back and saw teh car behind me it was the lil boi and his mom... Well it hit me hard because his mom was crying and lil boi was just lo0king at his food, and well his mom dint have anythign in her hands but the lil boi had pizza and well just to see her cry... i mean to me it made me want to ask whats wrong but then at the same time i know i have no right to... then i get in my car and as i was backing up i saw that they had things in the back of their car... lo0ked liek their belongings, not just any thing that you would just have in your car but i mean alot of cloths and just a few boxes...
well i onno to me i just felt bad and made me really really bad inside like i wanted to cry for her, just that fact that people int he world now just live life forgranted and it sucks... but yeah i jsu wanted to share this because it was a major thing that i saw today...
my prayers go out ot that lil boi and his mom... 
* life is so short and yet..... .... ... .. . | | |
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